nehhhh ,

iim bored .

staying at my room ..

for whole day ..

=.=

the only things tht ii can do is ,

comwhoring and facing the comp ~ 

LOL ==

-.- ~

我的第六感跟我说 , 结果一定会这样 ..

谁知道 , 真的实现了 , 可是那结果 , 其实不是我想要的 .. 

可是 , 就是给我猜中了 .. 那又怎样 ?

是猜中了 , 可是只是让自己心痛 .

命中去定的结果 , 由不得我去管 , 可是我很想改变结局 ..

算了吧 , 这也是在我预料当中 ..

友情 , 感情 方面 , 我已经做好心理准备..

可能感情变冷淡 ? 或还那么的和好 ..

已经有心理准备了 , 就算冷淡了 , 心痛了 ..

也再也不痛了 , 应该是准备好要去忍受这个痛吧 ?

所有的东西 ,

我可以很确定的告诉你 ..

会即将重明年大大改变 ~

可能你会说 , 不会的 ..

可适当年头的时候 , 应该还很好 ,

过了一段时间，有了新环境．

觉得还会像以前那样吗？

要说不会改变　，

就要懂得去做 .

因为, 讲出口的东西 ..

未必做得出来 ~

我很讨厌  现在的结局 ! ;( ..

;( totaly sad right now .

yeah , somtimes maybe happy to change to tht class ,
but ii dont wan separate with u guys ..
Kwan , Keii , Hong , Vin , Er ~
keii and vin same class with me ( maybe )
but ii dont wan others separate with me !

kwan , ii scare our frenship will lengdan ~
cux ii dont wan to be too ><
ii scare , cux wad we had in this year , is just this frenship ~

Hong , ii think u are happy to be in tht class .
but i , a fren of yours , of course dont wan u to seperate with me too ~
wad ii know is ,
expecially u , after changing class , ii know me and u geh frenship will be not tht good anymore ..
and ii know u wont be in the same class with me~
thn wad ii can do is just appreciate it ;(


Er , iim not so close with u compare to keii and kwan ~
but of course ii will missing u after changed classs ~
ii want u guys to be with me everytime so badly ,
but ii know thts why the fact tht couldnt change ..


I hate this ending !
FARK !
ii dont wan to be seperated !
even u dont mind to not be in the same class ,
I MIND IT MUCH !
ARHG ! sobs ;((((( !






i know YOU dont care ;
just stay where u wanted to stay 

什么都可以忍 , 可是我忍不到了 , 演不下去了 . !

其实我不懂要怎样 ,
我真的控制不了我的情绪..
想念以前的我们 ,
妒忌现在的现实 .
努力掩饰我的妒忌心..
但失败了 .

我什么每个本来跟我比较好的朋友 , 认识比较长时间的朋友 ..
会对一个 , 认识没我们久 , 没那么要好的朋友比较好 ?
我不明白 , 而且很讨厌 ..
我身边的朋友 , 都是这样 !
男 -- > 可爱的 , 向前去跟他玩 , 开玩笑 .. ( 主动 ) 而我就每次跟他们擦肩而过 , 而他们也没来主动找过我 , 
为什么 ? 我也不知道 ..
女 --> 今天他对你好 , 你喜欢他 .. 对你吼一吼 , 玩一玩 , 生气 ~ 

很讨厌 , 每次一有人哭 , 每一个人都去问 , ok marh ? huh ?
哭 , 可以 . 为什么要为了小事而哭 ? 那样弄得我更讨厌 ..!
我就是那种 , 要哭野人的要死的人 , 哭了出来 , 也不会让被人看到 ..
所以身边的人都觉得我没事 , 觉得不会被伤到 .. 可是我被伤到了 , 我不想表现出来
我觉得那样很愚蠢, 我不想被人觉得我伤到了 , 所以每次用不在乎的眼神去回答 .
我很在乎别人怎么看我 , 尤其是我最好的朋友 ..

我不喜欢又被讨厌的感觉 ,
可是有时就算被讨厌 , 我也装成那副样子 , （ 不在乎 ） 
而且 , 很伤心 ..
难以琢磨 , 我适合这句成语 ?
我最铭感的东西就是 ， 吃醋.

就算吃醋了 , 我也会把它吞到肚子里去 ,
我觉得吃醋是个不必要的东西 ,
所以才会那样 , 可是心里却觉得很酸 , 很痛 ~
可能是我太不会表达我自己的感受吧?

我是那么的难以琢磨吗 ? 我不觉得 , 可是 , 你知道我心里是这么想的吗 ?
如果你不懂的话 , 我就真的很难以琢磨了 , 哈 ~
我很讨厌现在的我 ,
你也是吧 .. 

><♥

X( .. 越陷越深 。

          有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆；

          有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，拼命想寻找一个出口；

          有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非；

          有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集..

       

Copyright ; Facebook picture's captions .

    我常常都这样 ;( .

ii like tht , becux sometimes iim like tht too ~

LOL , hmmm...

现在忽然觉得 , 不说 , 好过说  ~                           把你留下 . ;(           

因为觉得自己越陷越深 .><

觉得自己很可笑 ..

很讨人厌 ,                                                                     

很烦 ,

被厌倦 ..

我的心 , 我再也控制不到了 .                其实 ,

它 , 不听我话了 ..

它开始为所欲为了 ~

怎么办 ?

 >< .. 现在我甚至开始为自己叹气 ..

wad am ii surpose to do ?

ii cant stop myself doing those stupid things ;            不想 ,                        

... ;'( 

ii cant control my emotions , 

am ii happy now ? maybe ?                              

am ii sad now ? ii dont know O.+ ~                                  

恨不得时间可以停留在我最开心的时候 ~

hmm , 想想 , 应该是 June ; 六月 的时候吧 ?                我

haha , 应为那时候的我 , 得到我最想要的全部 .

可是现在 , 我在失去当中 ..  ;(                                      

我爱你 ; loves from aubrey , ♥ =)

Bukit Tinggi ♥ !

Bukit tinggi , not bad lol ~
take damn many picture XD` all at FB there comment and tagging and posting the picture like hell ~ HAHAHA ! XD`
kay , lazy to talk about the details , and here is the picturesss ^^ ~

 me and hong o.o.

we was about to go cux finish taking pic dy ,

thn kah wai go take this o.o ? LOL ==~

me and kwan ! XD`

before going to Bukit Tinggi ..

at the busss ! >< ''

teehee ! X) '

kwan was like O.O

>v< ~

yikyee ! >< she damn cute lol ~ X)

Cute ! ><

 

Calvin ! Lion ~ haha !

hahahaha , his face looks like he abit 

surprice ~ rite ?haha ! XD`

she use my phone 自拍 XD`

aahah !

 Ainun ! cute her ! XD`

Fatin ~ see her face ~ LOL ? ahahah!

calvin at the back there 抢镜头 izit ?

AHAHAH ! XD`

me and hong again , forgive me ==

cux many ppl taking pic for us in this pose lol

shiyeing , keii , kwan , kah wai all taking the same thing

but not same direction , lols ~ so ii think later will appear

another same pics == 

Soleh ~ haha ! XD`

 Kwan Half face oni ~ haha.

 Blur , JIa er there ! haha ~

 yeah , its him , but whn ii took this pic ?

ii forgotten o.o ~

nvm ~ ==haha !

 Yellow shirt , AINUN ! XD`

 Solou poseii , kah wai dont let me take picture of him

muahhaha , ii took 1 XD` lols ~

 yikyee bring her la bi xiao xin !

haha , she got a damn eyes man ! O.O

 la bi xiao xin 2 !

 SunShine ! weeeheee ~

ahahhaha !

 she dont know looking for wad.

hahaa ! lol ~

 Plying her phione ,

stalked .XD`

 HAHA ! mr victorrr ! XDXD`

see my eyes == ,

ii cant even open my eyes , the sun is too big !

==.ELEH ~

 paiseh , tebalik liao XD`

psps .

 me and my bottle~

=]

 dont know wad they doing there actually ,

they say they wanna vow wor ~

lols~

 Buildings at there ,

there damn little ppl lol ~ dont know why ==

 white colour geh swan XD`

still got 1 pair is black geh ,

but dint take till the black1 ~ =[ ..

 nice lerh the plants there ~

all so damn huge ~

ahah ! XD` my mum will love it much >v<

 AHHAAHAHAHHA ! XD`

Cikgu ! zhi keii like let ghost scare dou ~

AHAHHAHA ! LOLs

 See her Chuan face ~

Eleh !

ahahhahaha !

 Calvin !

Gam Mou ! XDXD`

 

Oh no , tebalik again ==

hey , peace CX 

 ahah! this is her main pose ~ XD`

 ii acutaly dont know wanna look at where ,

too make camera =o= ,

hahha ~ iim short =.=''

 This vry nice ,

>

 HAHA ! 

ainun so pretty aldy lo ==

arhg , envy !

 AHHAHA ! hey , hey qistina !

ii like this lol ~ ♥

 Man ZHI ! XD`

heylo. =]]]

 ahahaha !

Kwan looks funnehh in this pica ! XD`

Cute !

 omg , actually there are fatin , ainun

qistina , shiyeing , shze hwa , melissa ,

but me and their distance is too far ,

so they looks so damn tiny ~

AHAHHAHA ! XD`

 Tebalik .. haix ,Fatin , Qistina , Melissa , Ainun XD`

 mE and calvin ,

he almost gonna get mad tht ii keep capture till him

bcum half face oni～

 AHHA ! 我不是故意的 ><对不起 ~ LOLs

 ii looks sohai iin this pics lol ==

 He looks quite lengzai in this picas lol ~

AHAHHA ! XD`

 Hong , vin ~

LOLs 

Calvin wanna kiss Hong ! 

Oh NO ! ahahaha ~

 ii purposely stand at the higher staircase there ,

to let me look high ABIT == ~

why he smile dou like this ?

AHHA ! solou ==

 yikyehh! XD`

cant see her face ><

 Hahahha ! Fish ! XD`

 Tht time the weather，

aiyoo ~

 HAHAHAHA ! this vry CUTE XDXDXD`

kwan kwan kwan !

 ahahhaha!

S H A H A I X D `

 HAHA , she go purpusly do tht face , laugh die me ! XD`

 She go show the

" wan fight arh ? ! uh ? uh ? uh ? ''

face ~ AHHAHAHAHAHA ! XD`

Thn we came back to school ,

thn take pica with Ah Eng ~ XD`

ahhaha , actually , okay la the trip quite fun lorh ~

but sit too much liao la , 2 hours go , 2 hours back ~ LOL ==

Chi Sin lorh ~ ply 2 hours oni lerh ~

sommore the sun so damn BIG ~

make me damn tired , not really regret , but dint say dint regret also la ~ AHHAHA !

but 70 riggit ply 2 hours abit OMG == ~ 

ahahha ! anyways , as wad u guys said , take it as a memory lorh ~

AHAHAH ! 

thts all for today =]

Loves ! ♥