hey yo ..

exhausted ...
borin ,
tired day ~

yesterday ii went to Time Square .
Shop with my sis ..
we two was like , Crazy o.o ~
bought many things ,
( not really )
but the 1st time ii went out with a bag ,
and come back with 2 bags of things ~

LOL ==
shoping actually let me forget the sad things ,
but after shoping , the sad thing return back fast ..
(glum face ) .
worse thing is , ii finished using my moneehh ~
yay =.+ ''
and iim so death now ~
Arhgg ! 

moonnehh ..
haix.
bought 3 pairs of shoes , 2 pants , 1 dress , 1 baju , 5 sox ( soxworld XD`) , sushi , a bottle of drinks ? LOL == ~
not really tht much la ~ actually ii wan continue buying , but .. no moneh liao == ..
and ii think this is another way to let me release stress ~ HAHAHA ! XD`
but of course tht ii mush shop without my MUM ,
she was about to killed me whn she know ii bought this much of things ==.. LOL ..

it wont have this number of things tht can bought if she is there ~
hahaa ! everything , no , no , and  NO ~
LOLs == 
and she say we not shopping wisely ..
lol , sometimes she even bought a hundredsss riggit's bag and use it couples of times ,
and she say we dint shop wisely , and bought the right things tht u REALY need ..
kays , hahah ! nothing to say ..
cux she work hard on her work..

she deserve it ~ haha ! XD`
kay fine .. hahaha !
any machine can clear some part of sad memories ?
ii need tht machine , right now ~
LOLs  ..


Happy Ending .
NDETS ,
=] .

ii dint slp yesterday .

ii try hard to slp , whn ii was about to slp ,
1 hour later ii wake up again .
totaly lose control ,
ii got no any moood to laugh .
i force myself to smile .
but how , u teach me .


iim so tierd ,
but finally ii knew the fact ...
i should be happy ,
but iim not ~
my sad face ,
can originaly came out with no reason ,
just like my sad face blocked the smile face ..

so ii just giving up smile ,
like wad iim doing now ~
whole say think about all the details ..
but tht make me feel more sad.
ii cant even type a [  ;)  ]  smily simbol right now.

even this is pain ,
at least , iim not as blur as LAST TIME ..

[u can actually just ignore this paragraph']
tears , stop coming out from my eye aldy , kay ?
dont sad for this stupid things tht ii had did .. kay ?
just me calm . tears ~
dont let me tired tht u keep coming out ya ..
 



i know whn i saw u ,
ii will cant control my tears ,
so . dont talk to me ,
if u wan , go ahead .. 
see how ii cry thn .. 
its memorable , yeah ~ memorable ..

happy ending .

This is the happy ending ?
ii just lie to myself .

Silly me .

the reminder ,
whn ii dint use ----> =]   ^^    X)    ;)  ( and much more others simbol , 
iif i dint ever use any simbol to u in the conversation , means iim not in the mood , and dont use happy face simbol [eg ;^^ to me ] 


ii need somebody to talk to me..
 

ii finished my game ..

ii finished my game ,
everything is done.
but iim sad bout it too ..
bcux ii lose , without expecting anything..

ii know at last the game will ended like this ..
but ii rather see the truth myself .
....
ii hate plying this game ,
but ii enjoyed it much sometimes .

sometimes ii even dont know why ii will enjoy it ..
maybe iim dump to plying this stupid game ?
or maybe ii just loves this game much but ii just dont wanna admit .
but now , i know ii hate this game...
cux ii aldy lose 1 time ,
ii dont wanna have 2nd time.


why it is before ? tired . sad . angry . moody . happy ..
after losing this game , wad is my feelings right now ?
ii dont even know bout tht ...

Hey , you .

hey , ii know u are here again ..
so how are u ?
long time dint saw u on msn ~
hmm , so ii think u are not in my page this few days .
dont worry 
ii will miss you =]

wonder why u dint online ..
many stuff wanna tell u ..
so pls online ..
iim bored =o=

lols
tired ..~

i know u are always in this page..

i know u are always be in this page ..
so , ii write all my feelings , 
and even giving my heart for the post ..
everything tht ii wrote out 
almost is to tell u my feelings ,
but ii know ,
even u knew ii writing bout you ,
but i know u doesn't even care..

ii purpusly write out all those things ,
its actually just wrote it for you ..
did u realized tht ? ii think , your answer is yes ~
but u pretended like no ~


u knw me well , even my short form u can guess it out 90% ..
IDKWYWKTT ..
sometimes , ii even feel bored bout my life ..
why my life can going on like this ?
so many things can happen..
but the most horrible thing is ..
u gonna leave ..


how sad , right ?
ii think ii will miss u alot ..
so wad do ii have now ?
ii dont wanna say bye to you ...
but ii must ,
bcux ii know everything cant changed..


And wad ii know is ..
this is the fact ..
ii can just do nothing ..
and ii choose to give up ..
cux ii got no choice ~

"FRENS"  iis just like this,
ii think , ii already use to it to be in this kind of enviroment ..
haha . funneh =] .
...
how sad tht ii laugh without any happiness ..
poor me . ~

... haix ~ ;(

ii know iim too late , ii know ~
ii dont know whn too tell ..
ii dont know whn to say ..
so now wad ii can do is say goodbye ..
right ?


ii got no mood ,
no 1 tell me bout this , 
and ii just realized it this few days ..
ii know it will be like this ..


so ..
hey ,
bye ..
cux , the only thing tht ii can do is ..
say goodbye ;(


AIWLYF ..♥ ~
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