Hey people ;D !

So what is my mood today ? hmmmm , un-claculated" !
haha XD` this is just a random post , random day ; )
yeah , about this topic
- meet your old friends -
What topics can we usually talk about ?
ii mean , besides school , result .. is there other thing tht we can talk about @@
for me , hell no LOL

last time the fren tht ii usually hang out in the school or outside ,
now , its like .... hmmmm , weird .
LOL , its just a 2 super diffrent feelings @@ ..
and u know what ? last time ii used to ply around alot with the guy whn ii was small
dont know why ? up to senior , iim .. sort of .. changed alot LOL


yeah , iim shy since ii was junior one ..
but up to senior one , changed new school , new enviroment ..
my mind set start changing LOL , hmm , maybe its bcux last time iim more childish
or maybe ii start thinking alot ? XD`
and now , just like my previous post .. depends on who tht person is LOL


ii am the shy kind of person , but not REALLY ...
hmmm , how to say ? last time , even a e-mail address , ii will feel like
OMG , so open =o= ? he just gave me the address like this ? omggg
whn ii think back bout this , ii was like .. am ii okay ? LOL XD`
and this kind of thing getting normal for me compare to last time LOL


Ridiculous ==
hahhah ! iim totaly insane mannn , -laughed- ! ;D
did you realised one thing ? this few days , ii posted many thing bout myself ?
hmmm , wonder why too ..
ii type more faster whn ii talking bout myself LOL ~
not really gotta takes time to think the senteces .. and those senteces will just knocked my head
haahhaha XD` wth ?


Oh ! hey hey ! that day ii posted a thing at FaceBook ;p
'' 不是爱哭 ， 只是借用眼泪来发泄心情而已 '' ;P
this sentences means
- Not like to cry , is just using tears to express the feelings
hahahaaha ! Totaly Suits my previous post ! wow ! X)
liked !

Do you know my name ?

my name is Aubrey Chiew .

; ) Glad to meet you <3

hmm , sorry BC .

Tht day its a heartbroken day .. sorry , my BC D;
ii dint fail .. but thn .. paper one , wth ? -.-
things happen like this ..
the super tired , moody morning ..

school van came sent us to school ..
reached . whn down block C line up like how we usually did .
thn suddenly ii get my paper , with a COUTABLE marks ! wth !
at first , ii was like .. sad , shockoed .
ii think only this emotion , but thn whn ppl start asking me how many marks ii get
ii dont feel like telling , and just kinda ignored .. but everytime ppl asked me tht question .

my marks just like reply in my mind , but one thing tht jump out first whn ii get my paper ...
my chinese teacher . and he walked passed by with the moody sad face ..
yeah .. yeah , he did say tht the paper in this term is quite difficult ..
but wth , tht marks , ii can tell ii dint get it before @@
and how do u feel whn u get this kind of marks ? and how u feel whn u feel that teacher is  disappointed ? ii wont feel better .. eventhough he said nothing about my result , his emotion , what he think written on his face ..
its so hurt , and ii cant say anything about this .. ii cant say sorry to teacher ?
its my result ~ maybe ii did study abit , but thn ii dint put on the full effort ..
tell teacher sorry its just a waste of time and sliver .

Tht moment , everyone calling my name repeatedly . but ii dint give respon , ii dont mean tht ..
ii mean , they trying to comfort me , ii dint tell them the marks , but LOL , the marks is totaly wrote on my face okay ? LOL 
and my weakness is , whn try comfort me , ii will start turning on my tears paip . LOL
ppl might think im those kind of girl tht wont cry alot or something ..
but actually , iim a crying baby LOL ..
ii told some of my fren bout this , some feel normal , some will like .. shocked .
LOL , just can say , diffrent ppl diffrent opinion..

But the fact is , ii rarely cry infront of ppl , even family .. ecpecially at school ..
cry at school the the most most most most most embarres thing tht ii feel ..
and what if ppl find out bout tht ? OMGGG , oh noooo ! no face ! XP
but thts what ii did ==
whn ppl start comforting me talking to me , ii just close my eyes , and shhhhhhhhhhhh ..
ii just wanna let myseld calm down@@ , my tears just non-stop flowing -.-
thn went back to class , slowly ...tears dry ; ) .. ii just cant ... control @@ ..

teacher actually write some comment for me , ii mean , for everyone , but every ppl gets diffrent words .. teacher gave me 3 sentences .. the 3 sentences is ask me to see him , thts why whn its lunch time or whnever ii saw him , ii will start hiding myself LOL @@ 
ii just havent calm down in tht period of time , ii dont wan to cry again -.- ..
one day whn ii really let this thing down or really prepared to face it , ii will find him ..
Things always takes time okay ~~~~ ! XD`

Im okay now ;D wootss ! ;P
will fine him whn ii saw him ; )) ! <3
ily teacher ! X)

LOL . ii like looking through couples conver. XP ii know ... ii knoww ..==

I know ii know , iim kinda == , insane , sometimes me myself ! will also like , WTH ? aubrey ! freak ! are u serios !? whats the problem -o-?
seriously @@ , ii really look through those cover tht they wrote , example , fb wall to wall , comment ? idk ? ii just found tht , its sort of ... cute ? haha XD`
eventhough iim not involve in those conver . ii will just smiling ... thn will start feeling sweet bout all their words LOL !

HAHA ! wth ? am ii okay ? ;P so jealous .. all the couples is so sweet ! but whn things comes to me , everything MIght be not same @@
idk ? some ppl asked me this question '' Will You scare ? being with another guy the guy tht you like ? '' or '' If the guy tht u like came to you , and ask for all those acceptational thingy LOL '' <--- question , normally the first word tht ii most probebly said is , '' impossible -..-'' ;P

Idk why ? the scare thingy question , yes .. thats like a big question for me LOL ..
whn ii answer , yeah .. ppl usually ask me why ? or what so scare about ? but .. hounestly .. ii got no answer @@ LOL
maybe ii scare the bad ending ? maybe iim not stong enough to face this kind of thing ?
HAHA ! but u know what ? the main thing ii had faced in my life .. is
whn it comes to realationship btw boy and girl ... iim usually the one who being awkward @@ ?

Not to say iim usually the one ..
but iim just .. hmm , depends on who is it .. yeah ..
how u treat me , ii will treat u back the same ..
ii mean , the the attitude , or the '' skinship '' part ..
-besides kiss , sex , and other negative things not more thn frens -

If tht guy dint really care bout all the close realations , thn , ii will be fine with it too .
and after tht , ii will be more open to tht guy , u get what ii mean ? LOL
if tht guy always step back whn ii get close . of course ii know they dont feel okay being like tht ,
or maybe they might think we not surpose to get this close , thn okay ? ii will remind myself bout this
whn iim with him LOL ,  and usually this kind of guy .. instate of talking infront of them , ii will
just text or chat with them , but not talking one to one ..

Thts a totaly OMG for me if ii did tht == because for me , its like
negative touch negative will repel . LOL ! XD`
And ii will feel like .. embarresing , awkward , weirdy , speechless even uncomfortable LOL
haha ! does it make sense ? ;P
hais , sweet things always not tasted by me , unfair D; .. nvmmm ~ ;P

And wow , whn it comes to the situation like ...
The guy tht u dont like came up to u and ask u to be with him @@ ?!
how to reject ? how to react ? what reaction should we give ? hahaha !
omggggg ! what a sad case mann ? urgh , luckly all tht dint happened to me ..
thts why ii wont confess .. how shame is tht if they rejected me ? OMG
ii really dont know where to keep my face mann ! LOL
direction-ness mann ! hahaah XD` wtf , thts my word ;P

And thts the reason tht iim still single - but unvailable . HAHA !
wow ! ii will think alot alot and alot before ii get into something
ecpecially in this case LOL
how many cases , from frens , fren's fren and blablabla ..
all those story just let me think much , and start avoid things happen to me ..
thts what happen whn ppl think much . ahhahah ! thts me ;D
but u know what ? iim pround tht ii always in the single side .. iim pround of it kay ? PROUD . LOL

Forget tht who told me this ..
some country , whn u are 15 or 16 , u dint have sex with guys / girl before ..
ppl will start laugh at u bcux of this -.- ? wth ? ... sorry to say tht , its kinda .. lame and stupid ==
hmmm , what wrong with not having sex LOL ? no offends . but ?!
not only sex ii think , even u dint get into a realationship before , virgin , havent lost your first kiss ..
they will laugh at you too .. LOL ?
but thn , why guys like virgin alot ? -.- ? ahahaha .. complicated huh ? ..

ii wanna be the blessed one ! woohoo !
nan .. chongmal saranghae ! XD` ;P 
                                                                                                                                                                 

The Rondom me ; )

Hey there ; ))

 Just a smile ; ) but it meant alot for me <3

Backgrown Picture ;P

haha X) ! ily 

Peacs ! v v

In the genting toilet ;D LOL takin pic

 1.7.2011 Friday BEAST concert - Sunway

Actually iim way goin home LOL , concert was super intersting ! loves yeoseob lots ;D  there got no time to let me take pic , if take pic or video , cannot see , ii mean , yeahhh .. we was far away from the stage , but still , we look at the screen , and their moves on the stage , all i can see is just , stage , with BEAST members , but not the face D; , but still , look from the screen there aldy good enuf for me , bcux its too cute for everyone of us ;DD ! - ily BEAST <3 !

Sister drivin . ;p

Me with the BEAST ballon XD`

Ballon ! XD` ii grap many ballon mann .. actually we dint get it , just bcux some malay girl suddenly take few packets of those ballon and like so excited and giving up those ballon , keep asking who wants tht ~ LOL , thn me and my sis grap abit . Kinda like it too ;D its nicee XD`

concert finish at 10 something  ;D miss tht alot D;

;PP

They Rock the night ;D ! iim tired though , shout like orang gila XD` LOL 

 

 

BEAST Rocks ! XD`
They make everyone high ! ;P
ii got no voice lol @@ !
- my troat D;

I might Not ready to say i gave up .
but , ii know iim the the progress , and everything flow smoother thn ii though .
... but its pain .

Its Just a Dream ..<3 

  

Its just a dream , just make everything bout you as a dream , and ii dreamt bout you .

lots of it , but not anymore .. because those dream will not End .. 

the story tht we had , is just a stanger with a stranger .

we meet in this dream , it might be real , but .. its just a complicated and ridiculous dream ..

You hated me , and ii hated you .. the dream says tht !

so AubreyChiew , wakeup , and face the fact .

hdly , hlyy , bny , gu , pgu..p ~ yjmuetys , ssi ! dltgdeeper !

its . just . a . dream . D; 

Aubreychiew .

The Only Aubrey ; The only Pic XD`

 

me , me , me and me XD`LOL

 The Sunlight Brighten me up ;D ! <3

 iPad ! ;D but not mine D; Cousin sister's ><

 Me with iPad , Plants Vs zombie XD` LOL

 ;B haha ! XD`

 ;E smile ; )

 Purple ;D !

 haha ! XD` mickey ! ;P

 Smile with me :D

 BigBang , GD ; TOP <3 !

Hey ! call me aubrey ! ;P

Today just post out some of pictures this year ;D LOL

iiknw its quite  ugly but still , please dont mind ;P

kinda lazy post things XD` 

just pictures today ! hope you like it 

haha X) ! byebye !

iloveyouTT ! cryoutloud ! XD` 

aubreylovesyoualways ! TT

Am ii ... okay ? ..

This is the holidays ..
the two weeks holidays ..
ii went to a trip .. a trip , that should be happy , awesome , and maybe it will be meant alot to me ..
alot .. those epic thing ii have thought before .. just , gone .. like this ..
everything just blow away . from me ..

Trip goin on .. Honestly , there is a disappoint , in my heart ...
moody , mad , frustrated , annoyed .. even feel like crying ~
why ? idk .
no one understand my feelings .
even ii told u everything .. every single thing ..

you , are not the same ..
you are more special in my heart ..
but now , its not special for me anymore .

ii cant get u sometimes .. everything changed
even the trustable you , cant understand me ..
all my words , all those alphabet ..
cant you just be more understand , cant you just stand at my side and think for while ?

iim totaly regret .. regret everything tht i did .
everything goes wrong .. everything went out of control .
this is all wad ii dont expect to be , but it just happened like this ..

ii told her .. told her bout this ..
and ii knew , from tht moment , she is more understanding than others ..
ii knew her , just for few months . but  you .. years .. why ?
the realationship btw us , is no any warmth ..
cold , its colder thn wad ii dont expect .

ii used to told u everything .
sometimes , u let me know , how mature u are .. as a fren , u show me , how ii should and gotta be ..
sometimes , u let me feel , the warm tht u had , whn iim sad , whn ii need you to be there for me ..
sometimes , u let me feel , funny happy , u try hard to make me laugh , try hard to maintain our name .. B ..F F ...
sometimes , u share your words , your life , you everything to me .. ii will know how sad u are .. will try to comfort you , like how u comfort me whn ii sad ..
somtimes , u let me  feel diffrent , bcux we dont shown how good are we in lifes , but in words ..thts how special we are.

But sometimes , u let me feel sad , disapoint .. sometimes u will bother me for while if u feel happy in tht moment . but whn u moody , dont feel like reply .. u will just let me be the stupid jackass , waiting for u to reply .
the only reason ii will wait , is dont want you to be like me , waiting for reply . like a dumpass
Sometimes , u think iim happy , u just think tht actually , nothing happen , all the thing had passed , so .. u will think tht ii wont feel sad bout it .. this shown tht , u dont even understand me ..
You like to win .. no lose in your mine is allowed . whn arguement btw us started . yeah , maybe yes , sometimes you are right , but whn things show tht u are wrong , u will not admit it eventhough u know u are wrong and just talk rubbish to let u feel good , let u feel tht your words are meaningful and thoughtful .. eventhough how thoughtful ppl's word is , u wont really care bout it , all u care , is your own , your own rights , not bother others feelings , no comfort ..

everytime , our arguement got no fullstop . u know why
bcus , wad ii told u , is just all rubbish for you , the only thing is right .. is wad u said.
u will say , u understand , u know , but u dont know ..
whn u are wrong , u will deny it , or just - where got ? did i ? -
why tht attitude ? .. sorry , is also not part of your life .. why ? bcux u wont use tht even we got proof tht u were wrong .
ii dont get it ..
 ii feel .. strange , bout u and everything right now ..
idk why ..

ii told her everything bout my life .. wad happen , wad ii use to do , how ii use to be , who is my besties , who ii like , everything .
she know me well .. understand me well
wont leave me alone ..
u use to did all tht to me , even good morning , evening , nights , texting always .. msning always .. FB chat box anytime , anyplace . everything diffrent ...

ii know u will start explaining every single thing if u saw this , but dont . dont explain .. bcux ii know u will find tones of reasons again ..
wad can ii do ? right ?
u got new frens , new lifes ..
wad can ii do to change you ..
its not worth .. bcux at last , it will be the same ..

iim tryin hard to maintain .. maintain our realationship ..
bcux ii know , we are good in words life , but not realife ..
wad we can do , is chat .. hanging out ..
iim trying , but do you ?
our name , BFF ..
ii dont feel like it can last any longer ..
BFF .. is just wad u told me , tht .. will not achieve ..
ii think , its just a compliment for our frenship ..

iloveyouTT . cry..outloud ..
aubreylovesyoualways .TT