Am ii ... okay ? ..

This is the holidays ..
the two weeks holidays ..
ii went to a trip .. a trip , that should be happy , awesome , and maybe it will be meant alot to me ..
alot .. those epic thing ii have thought before .. just , gone .. like this ..
everything just blow away . from me ..

Trip goin on .. Honestly , there is a disappoint , in my heart ...
moody , mad , frustrated , annoyed .. even feel like crying ~
why ? idk .
no one understand my feelings .
even ii told u everything .. every single thing ..

you , are not the same ..
you are more special in my heart ..
but now , its not special for me anymore .

ii cant get u sometimes .. everything changed
even the trustable you , cant understand me ..
all my words , all those alphabet ..
cant you just be more understand , cant you just stand at my side and think for while ?

iim totaly regret .. regret everything tht i did .
everything goes wrong .. everything went out of control .
this is all wad ii dont expect to be , but it just happened like this ..

ii told her .. told her bout this ..
and ii knew , from tht moment , she is more understanding than others ..
ii knew her , just for few months . but  you .. years .. why ?
the realationship btw us , is no any warmth ..
cold , its colder thn wad ii dont expect .

ii used to told u everything .
sometimes , u let me know , how mature u are .. as a fren , u show me , how ii should and gotta be ..
sometimes , u let me feel , the warm tht u had , whn iim sad , whn ii need you to be there for me ..
sometimes , u let me feel , funny happy , u try hard to make me laugh , try hard to maintain our name .. B ..F F ...
sometimes , u share your words , your life , you everything to me .. ii will know how sad u are .. will try to comfort you , like how u comfort me whn ii sad ..
somtimes , u let me  feel diffrent , bcux we dont shown how good are we in lifes , but in words ..thts how special we are.

But sometimes , u let me feel sad , disapoint .. sometimes u will bother me for while if u feel happy in tht moment . but whn u moody , dont feel like reply .. u will just let me be the stupid jackass , waiting for u to reply .
the only reason ii will wait , is dont want you to be like me , waiting for reply . like a dumpass
Sometimes , u think iim happy , u just think tht actually , nothing happen , all the thing had passed , so .. u will think tht ii wont feel sad bout it .. this shown tht , u dont even understand me ..
You like to win .. no lose in your mine is allowed . whn arguement btw us started . yeah , maybe yes , sometimes you are right , but whn things show tht u are wrong , u will not admit it eventhough u know u are wrong and just talk rubbish to let u feel good , let u feel tht your words are meaningful and thoughtful .. eventhough how thoughtful ppl's word is , u wont really care bout it , all u care , is your own , your own rights , not bother others feelings , no comfort ..

everytime , our arguement got no fullstop . u know why
bcus , wad ii told u , is just all rubbish for you , the only thing is right .. is wad u said.
u will say , u understand , u know , but u dont know ..
whn u are wrong , u will deny it , or just - where got ? did i ? -
why tht attitude ? .. sorry , is also not part of your life .. why ? bcux u wont use tht even we got proof tht u were wrong .
ii dont get it ..
 ii feel .. strange , bout u and everything right now ..
idk why ..

ii told her everything bout my life .. wad happen , wad ii use to do , how ii use to be , who is my besties , who ii like , everything .
she know me well .. understand me well
wont leave me alone ..
u use to did all tht to me , even good morning , evening , nights , texting always .. msning always .. FB chat box anytime , anyplace . everything diffrent ...

ii know u will start explaining every single thing if u saw this , but dont . dont explain .. bcux ii know u will find tones of reasons again ..
wad can ii do ? right ?
u got new frens , new lifes ..
wad can ii do to change you ..
its not worth .. bcux at last , it will be the same ..

iim tryin hard to maintain .. maintain our realationship ..
bcux ii know , we are good in words life , but not realife ..
wad we can do , is chat .. hanging out ..
iim trying , but do you ?
our name , BFF ..
ii dont feel like it can last any longer ..
BFF .. is just wad u told me , tht .. will not achieve ..
ii think , its just a compliment for our frenship ..

iloveyouTT . cry..outloud ..
aubreylovesyoualways .TT

This is How ii look like ;D

hey ;D ! yesterday went to Jusco , for movies ! ♥
Priest ! nicee la actually 
but , LOL -.- the vampire , scary like hell =.=
whn me and my sis finding sits , me sitting beside a super tall dude
thn , the movie start


vampire comming out non stop ..
scaring ppl , like HAAAAAAAAA !
and the sound is super loud =o=
dont know how many times ii jump up -.-


ii keep closing my ears whn ii feel like vampire coming out XD` ahha !
stupid ;P
got 1 time , ii really shocked like hell , close my ears and whole body turn super fast to my sister side 
thn tht tall dude look at me , like - LOL @@ ? ahha ! XD`
yu peii ;DDD ! ><
its scary kay ? but still , nice laa --
actually dont like this kind of movies one la 
but kwan theyall say nicee , so we went for it =o=


nvmmmm , still liking it though XD`

wearing this earing ;D
kwan gave me as birthday Present XD` ♥

- story ended .

iloveyou TT ! cryoutloud ! XD` 
 ♥

Wesak Day ;)

Today dint do anything , just sit at home ..
Thn , kinda hungry , and ii go cook pasta for myself ;D
plying ChongChong game at FB ...
thn start my homework at night time ..

Just now heard something from you ..
hmm , ULH ~
ii think , u are serious ?
but u just , trying to make it like a joke ?
hmmm ? ..

u know wad ? ii  miss u dude !
why dint online == !
haha XDD` LOL
yesterday ii saw Liew Jinn's status ,
its about the iPad 2 ! XP
and start asking her bout tht
haha , iim planning to buy iPad actually
but , tht time iPad 2 gonna comeout dy ,
so , ii wait for it , and nowwww ! iPad 2 !!
but ii dont know my dad let me buy or not  =.=
hmmmm .. pray to god ... XD`

today not really in the mood ,
soo , byee ><
sorry for this short post
>x<

iloveyou TT ! cryoutloud ! ♥
Byebye . ;P

Its Sunday D;

anyways , few days dint update my blog =o= , - lazy -
so , wad happened ?
hmmm , 1st thing , ii heard some bad news from Nisha -[one of my beloved fren ;D ]
she told me everything bout it , sad case , if me , ii will just bang my head to the wall ! LOL XD`
her thing is , WOW @@ .. shocked @.@

and thnn , yaaa , the friday - the ECA time ~ LOLOL
walked with WaiLing ♥ , 
this was super awesomee mannn ! XD`
u wont know wads so awesome LOL , but nvm ~ 
ii like tht whole ECA time , and the Whole friday schooling time X) !
♥

Whats next ? hmm , ii put my FB realationship status as in a realationship LOL 
pplss liking it , and commented , asking me about who is tht ~ ;P
ii sort of like tht feelings lol , its funny actually XD`
but , of course , thts so not true == , duhhhh ? Cx
at 1st , whn ppl asked me bout tht , ii just replied 
- XD '
- haha ! X)
- dont know ? XP
- LOL 
or something related , and just dont say its real or not XP
but at last , ii saw one of my tuition teacher commented @@ ! 
- ii mean , last time , she used to teach me , but not now . ;P
she said - congrats , and remember to intro kk ?
something like this , ii wassss likeeeee ! OMG .
ii forgot tht my cousin , my sis , my bro , even my aunt got FB ! 
RELIED FAST ! - no laaa >< just plying , its not real okay ? XD`
ahahha , feel stupid bout it XP
-wonder How my MUM react whn she know - =o= 
haha ! anways , things ended like this -.- , wanted to have fun longer , 
but , grrrrr Dx ... nvvmmmmm ~ XD` ♥


After All tht ... yeah , my sis went to TW ♥ , On the Freiday Morning , X)
but ii felt sooooooo bored alone in the room without her in the room ==
even though sometimes she is annoying buttttttttt ! ahaha !
stilll , iim bored , so , ii start finding some Drama , movies , or anything can let me sit there and watch quietly .
ii found this few Drama , or watever show tht ii can watch :
- The Mentalist [ super nice , like it XD` but ii cant found in Youtube , Tudou , even PPS ! gah ! last time PPS used to have this , but they go and removed the english drama and all the series .. idk why =o= sad case]
-YouTube [ ii watch the new videos BlackQueen , they are the dance group in Korea , they are epicly Awesome ! serious ! go check them out ! X) ]
-PPS , watching 49 days , its a korean Drama , NICE ~ ♥

this is not the leading man , 
but ii found him hot LOL XDD`

the girl at the left , is the leading girl , and the right one .. ii think is sort of  a leading girl too ? but , in the drama , left one appear moree LOL ! XD`
anyway ? idk why they went and put the left girl as a leading one , the right one is much prettier thn her LOL ? haha ~

this is how she look like , she just look exactly like a barbie doll mann ! =o= pretty ><

ii mean , she is pretty too , but , stilll , the other one is prettier LOL - for me ~
XD`




















- PPS , another korean drama , not bad , still dont know its nice or not ~ cux there is only 2Ep now ><

  

- PPS , watch 康熙来了 ` ahaha ! XDD` 

-PPS , 我们结婚了 .. 

and blablablabla ~

wanted to watch criminal Minds , but , ii think its abit eww XD` and theres too many season LOL @@

ii think there is season 1 , 2 , 3 , 4 , 5 or even got 6 , iim not sure bout this , wat ii know is .. many season la ! haha XD`

iiMissYou ♥

iloveyou TT ! cryoutloud ! ♥

annyonggg - ! korean XD`

Its the time to change my Style XD` ♥

The new Style of mine X) `
feel lazy after doing those changes ..
soo ..

byee >x< !

iloveyou TT ! cryoutload ! XD` ♥

Weeheee XD` Happy Mother's Day !

Today is Mother's Day ! X)
Special day , Normal Celebration [ dont really celebrate actually @@ ]
We bought a pair of ear ring for mummy ;D
from Lazor Diamond [ dont know the spelling xP ]

Thn we go pasar malam , after tht , went back home ~
[ not happy bout my hair , its too long +_+ ] - fringe -
so ii was like
- maaaaaaa , help me cut hairr >< , plssssssssssss ! XD`
- dont wan la ! -.- , so late ady , cut wad hair la !
-yeeeer , plss laa >,< , see my hair , soo long lerh -.- , mm xu fok aa >_<
- =..= , Go take scissor ! ....

haha , thn mum start help he cut , hahah XD` ♥
cut cut cut , thn start talking bout friends to mummy ;P 
and my fringe is done ! and now , ii can see the world ! LOL xD` 
my hair keep blocking me kay -.- annoyed .
anyways , ii love you mummehhhhh ! X)


thanks for the haircut too LOL XD` 
and thanks , you gave me a wonderful life ; ))
one again .


I Love♥ You ;D !
 

iim 15 years old this year X)

ps , quite a long time dint touch my blog XD` - sorry
okay , lets talk about my birthday thn ;)
ii got a super awesome birthday this year
- even though its just birthday wishes at my FB and at school
- whole class singing birthday. songs for me XDD` [ love it ]


LOL , tht mean alot for me okay XP
at least better thn last year and last last year's birthday ? ;P
so , hows tht go on ?
morning ,
brashing teeth - tie up hair - wear my lens - put on uniform - lip balm - put on sunblock - pack my things - ready for school .
frens passing by , with the birthday wishes XD`
sometimes even dont know how to reply them ? LOL
thanks ? a laugh ? haha ! ii did tht alot mann xP ..
ii dont know how to react whn ppl did tht ><


Its Lunch time ! Sitting with frens , ppls start wishing me , thts feel epicly good LOL XDDD`
after lunch , start our lessons again -.-
someone start the " teacher , today is aubrey's birthday , can we sing B.D song for her ? " thing =o=
teacher '' okay .. '' [ with the Big smile LOL ]
ii was like NOOOOOOOOOOOO XDD` dont know why ? ii feel embarres @@ , but at the same time , ii feel so happy whn the whole class did tht LOL X)
whn they start singing , wad ii do is just slp at the table and keep on smiling LOL XDD` - stupid >,<

Thanks LOL , ii really love tht ;PP
now reflesh back everything , will feel warm and happy even things passed long time ><
ii missed tht day ; ( alot ~
thn its my time to go check out my FB ~
Buffff ! like everyone , whn birthday , tones of birthday wishessesesse just pop out XD` LOL
- busying reply all the wishesesee - LOL
appreciate and loves tht day  alot ;DD !

do u know , iim waiting you ? to .. wish me .. 
wish me , happy birthday .but ,
u dint . D;
- disapointed .

ate dinner with family , happily
tht night , ii refused to slp LOL
why ?
ii dont wan 29.3.2011 end .. ><
hmmm , nvmmm ~ ;P


so , things go on like this ; )
♥

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 THE FRIENDSHIP PROBLEM ?

hmmm , changed class . separated . maintaining ? . understanding .
changed class , every1 is just seperated like this ..
its sad , but ii think we still maintaining our relationship btw frens . ; )
but , times passed by , things started to change again ..


You are not so close to me anymore ..
You dont really understand me anymore ..
You and me , we cant really communicate properly anymore ..
is this the prob we facing ?


you are always my bestiss ,
nothing will change , just communication is needed ; D
ii speaks straightly to diffrent ppl , diffrent situation , pls understanf tht .
one thing , iif ii speak it out , can u really accept wad ii say ?
for me , u cant . ii just scare telling it out is more worst ..
ii rather maintain this forever , ii dont wan argue , thts all ~

ii dont wan u talk to me after ii complain to u about how u lefting out me ..
Why  ?
because its kinda obvious tht its just bcux ii complained , and u only start talking to me ?
and it can just last 1 week .. so wad for ii talking about tht ? 
kept quiet , for me , thts the best way , dont you understand ?
@@

and most important thing , its not to 1 ppl , its too all my frens tht close to me ~
yeah , if ii tell u wad ii angry at , my bad ..
this is my reason ..
sorry ? D;

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my 2011 story , short . but its meaningfull for me ; )
iloveyou TT ♥ -cryoutloud ! XD`